I tell my stories, yet this blog is truly not about me: I seek to fortify the minds of those who seek to conquer the battles that lie ahead.
Thank you to everyone who ever helped me.
I'm resuming daily recordings to my site, just like I did in July. I must get exceptional at speaking and what better way than to practice daily?
Now that I’m back, I can’t help but notice how I have practically nothing in common with anyone. So, I must use the method from my latest video. Instead of ‘I have nothing common with anyone,’ I say, ‘I have nothing common with anyone right now, and that’s okay.’
‘Having nothing in common’ has two parts. One, my worldview goes counter to practically everyone at university. That means, I can’t do any discussions or deep talk. That’s my fault, you may say, and I say, ‘Fair enough, that is my fault.’ But when we set different worldviews aside, we still have no common interests. The gym would be a common interest except that everyone hits the gym these days. That means, every day, I have to put on a mask, which is, in many cases, an inversion of my natural character. For instance, I hate making jokes and I love the grind. Now you may say, ‘just ask deep questions, instead of trying to be funny,’ but then I just get ignored. Yes, I just get ignored - There’s nothing to be added. One of my biggest loves in life is dedication. Guess what – no one cares – and that’s okay.
Yet, despite everything, I have two people in university I can discuss everything with and I am grateful for that.
Chapter 13.
Chapter 12. 6th semester at 17 years old.
Chapter 11. At university. Gaining upward momentum.
Chapter 10. Moving away from my parents. Confusion. A identy crisis and the death of my second business.
Deleted because I fall far short of my own standards.
Chapter 9. Joy after returning to strength and overcoming a year of heartbreak. Holidays between school and university.
Chapter 8. Returning to strength and the end of 12th grade.
Chapter 7. Because I failed to resolve that inner conflict around her, I felt very depressed.
Chapter 6. The girl’s behavior drastically shifted after I published chapter 5, which made me think she was interested in me. That created a battle between my heart and mind, which led to a creative peak. Meanwhile, I was physically sick for months and couldn't go to the gym.
Chapter 5. The first time I stop trying to impress the girl I want.
Chapter 4. A month after the failure of my first business, and being heartbroken for four months, I try to return to strength multiple times.
Chapter 3. After working on my app business for three years and seeing it fail, I had a very blissful time. In the background, I grew increasingly weaker.
Chapter 2. A cute little story.
Chapter 1. A summer starting with heartbreak, burnout, and then hardcore discipline and deep bliss. These texts were clearly meant to impress the girl who rejected me.
Peak wordcount
June 2024: 289,700
Current wordcount
September 2024: 101,200
Why are some numbers missing?
These texts were unessential.
The story of this blog
On a Wednesday evening, back when I was 16, I got the idea to start
a
blog. By Thursday noon, I had written and published three texts. The next day, I got a rejection. Thus, my blog
became a testament to the indomitability of my spirit.
With love, Kiryl P., 2025
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